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i've decided not to be so hard on myself, or on others. i've decided not to get angry at me when i stay in bed when i should be working instead. i've decided not to get angry when my dad says the wrong thing, or what i think is the wrong thing. i've decided to forgive my boyfriend because he decided to go away on a holiday, leaving me behind after he'd said he would never do so again. i've decided to be at peace. not to be in strife. not to be hard and fast. to break rules when i don't feel like keeping to them. to give in. i want to live to never regret. to make each moment and each thing count.l i want to not have to hide how i feel. i want to give in and not be afraid of being weak. i want to be happy. i want my life to be lived well. to be run by desires and balanced by responsibility. i want to hang up my hangups. xxx